A stain

Something happened and you worked it out and you thought it's over and you will be able to forget it by time.

Then you found out that you are wrong, that you cant forget it and that it's not over yet.

What happened has left something in your mind and no matter what you do or no matter how hard you try, you still find it there, slowly killing your feelings and poisioning your thinkings about bad things that might be happening in the future in the same shape, same type, done by same person and you wake up every morning with that fear and you go to bed every single day with the same fear, thinking about it.

Even better, just only tiny thing can make you relate to what happened and to what has left in your mind.

Questions! You found a brzilion questions about it but you know for sure that you would never have the answer. Or because you dont dare to ask and the reason why you dont dare to ask is because you are scared of a real answer.

Well, so is it safe and smart to keep yourself awake and aware of the realality and stop yourself from getting into another stupid dream which can easily hurt you again like what it did exactly last time?

That's what I call a stain!