Democracy and fake stuff in Canada

It's everywhere! Talking about democracy in Canada, I have only one thing to say: The Government has been doing a really good job in brain-washing people here. They believe the Government more than anywhere else that I have been to. But looking at it from an outsider's perpective, I can see a lot of things that the Government is doing without any respect to human rights or other basic rights of people here. The only difference is the Government knows how to make people believe that they are taken care of about everything. The whole North America is the perfect place to find best liars in politics and in many other things.

A lot of fake stuff and things going on in daily life and people are too narrowed view to see. People in this continent live in their own comfortable boxes and physically, those boxes may be the most comfortatble boxes in the world. But at the end of the day, it's just boxes. Poor these people. At first, I got angry from getting hurt by the system, but then I feel bad for them as they will not be able to see over the box and will forever stay in these boxes for the rest of their lives. I'm getting out really soon. I might have my meltdown here, I might have my depression here, but NEVER will I lose myself, my dignity and my own identity over this narrowed-view country and continent. I'm glad that finally I can figure out that it's not my place here. Too cold! Both the weather and the people. All of them are so nice but not all of them are real nice. A lot is faking that they are nice. People lie about daily things too and they excuse that they are being nice and they dont want to hurt others feelings. I call it "lying". I prefer a honest comment on whatever I have than a nice compliment and then to know that it's fake. Think about it, when people say nice things about almost everything to almost everyone, that's fake already!

I like my durty and dusty Asia way better. Things might be a lot less comfortable but you will know if the person you are talking to likes you or hates you. That's a lot easier on your nerves. And it hurts less to know that they hate you than hearing that they like you and then finding out that they actually hate you.

Make any sense to you? Anything else for the welcome party ? Bring it on Canada!!!

Emptiness....

They say I'm depressed and I need to see a doctor for it. How do I feel?

Empty...

Lost....

Drowning....

Scared....

Lonely....

Why? Don't know! Things mean everything and then suddenly mean nothing at all. Just want to let go, give up, stop thinking, stop being confused, stop being lost, stop looking, stop hearing, stop breathing........

Everything and nothing...