Gentlemen, wives or lovers? Think about it!

It was 6PM and I was still In office, working on some stuffs to make sure when I leave the company, they would not call to my cell everyday to ask where this was and where that was. My Chief Engineer was still working too and he's a really good technician and doing a really good job.
Riiiiiiiiing….riiiiiiiiing, his phone!
"Hi daughter! What are you doing?"
"……………………………"
"Oh, sorry but I'm still working here and I just cant leave. Why don’t you have your dinner and then I'll be home later, ok?"
"……………………………."
"Oh, honey, I'm sorry but I can’t. Listen, let's have your dinner with your mom and I'll be home later,ok? Bye honey!"
Ahh, that's his daughter calling to ask him home to have dinner with her. Anything wrong here? He doesn’t love his daughter or he's really THAT busy?
No, no and no! He just doesn’t want to be home and to face his wife! Why? Cuz he's having a lover and his wife knows It. His marriage Is In a very bad bad period, what we call It again? The midle age or midle marrage crisis? Ok, whatever! I know his story kinda well cuz he's kinda open to me and we are close enough for him to tell me the story.
He's been having a lover for more than 6 months and during that time, he does not touch his wife, even just a finger and ofcourse, not a word said to each other. They’ve been seperating for almost a year since his wife knew about the lover. He told me that they are even now In the process to get divorced!!! Oh, man! You guys may think he didn’t love his wife at first or they got married accidentally and the marriage was not made of love. No, I'm sorry guys, but you are terribly wrong. They have been In love for each other for almost ten years and their love has been through lots of ups and downs as many many other lovers. He even went out with other girls when they were apart for a while. But In the end, they got married since they knew they can't live without each other. But that was 10 years ago. The happy time was over but their story Is so nice to listen to and very romantic as other billion stories. He even made a poem for her and the poem was learnt by his heart so well that he can still remember and read It out loud without any stop. But that's 10 years ago! Do you really think that a very very nice love which has been through such ups and downs can be over that fast?
I don’t know If I should believe In the real love. Why? Because I don’t know If there Is one or not? Well, I hate listening to him complaining about his marriage since I know he's trying to find the best excuses for his "having a lover" action. Whatever the excuse Is, I still hate It. Cuz In the end, having a lover besides a wife Is wrong and If he has to look for excuse, that means he knows he's wrong! I'm not saying that he's the only one who Is wrong Is this situation. It's true that his wife Is too controlling to him and making him feel so unbreathable with her control. She always wants to know everything about him In details, In very details I mean. Like, where are you now? Who are you with now? How much do you earn a month, where Is your salary this month and give It to me!!! To be honest, even I am a woman too, but I would hate to have such a wife If I was her husband. I hate to be that controlling and I hate someone to be controlling to me. But, hey wake up!!! You, love each other and you got married to each other as you don’t want to live without each other and what you are doing when the marriage got a problem Is to blame each other? Is It really a healthy way to solve the problem and do you really think that you can get the problem solved by blaming each other? No, I don’t think so. In the end, what you wanna do Is to save It and to tell the other how much you love him/her, not to tell the other that you are wrong and I am right. Ok, so If In the end, somebody admited that they were wrong and the other was proved to be right, what would you do with that result? Do you think the result can really help to solve and save the marriage? I don’t think It can. The only thing It can do Is to hurt the other and In the end, everybody got hurt and the marriage would be worse and you would be further to each other. I don’t belive that everybody gets marriage would like to have such an end. Think about It!

Just got back from a brithday party of someone whom I don’t know. Weird! I was accidentally there!!! I don’t know most of everybody there, just some of them are my friends. Talked a lot, laughed a lot and aet a lot too!!! It was good evening actually! Just one thing spinned my mind. There's a couple who has been married for a short time and they just got back from Denmark since the husband Is Danish and the wife Is Vietnamese. The funny thing Is the husband kept starring at me as If his wife was not there and there's no other girls In the restaurant. Why? What's that for, gentlemen? Can you answer? Or It's a guy thing again to stare at girls and to flirt them at any given time? Think about It.

Someone saw a controlling and jealous "In a stupid way" wife who Is Vietnamese and then came to the conclusion that I will ( not would) be the same, be that controlling and that stupid and that jealous In that stupid way. And then the conclusion that I am taking advantage of that someone just came as natural as If It was naturally supposed to come. Not mention the unfairness of being judged without any proof or evidences, does It make sense to say:" If an egg In a basket Is bad then every other eggs will( not would again) be bad too, exactly same?" Honestly, It sounds stupid to me! At first I thought I could get over It and could forget It later when the someone said sorry. But I was wrong. I just can't. And It sucks. The last thing I think of when I go to bed Is what I was told, and the first thing I think of when I wake up In the morning Is what I was told too. About ……….that! Did I get hurt? Oh, yeah! Can I get over It? Well, I thought I could at first, but I can't. These words stay with me and I know they will stay with me long. Maybe you guys would say"Oh, don’t worry! Everything Is gonna be fine and It's gonna be over". Yeah, maybe, maybe not! And maybe, I can get over It later, but not now. Think about It!
Is It a pre-period of having another lover besides your lover or your wife? Think about It!
Life Is just tough sometimes. But you know what? Just keep swimming…….just keep swimming………

The top of the mountain is still far away.

I dont know what to think about things sometimes. It's just confused and hurt so much that I dont even want to think about it! I found out something made me feel being betrayed and it looks like that person is lying to me about something. I feel like my eyes are being covered and I dont know what is going on around me. Maybe what I found out is not a big deal as i thought, but why? and what's that for? And anyway, it hurts though Im trying to be strong, as long and strong as I can.

Everything is so unstable and unsure and risky! I feel bad! I'm like a snail who got
hit for just one time and then so scared that dont dare to show up anymore and dont want to communicate anymore, just wanna be in my cover.Too bad!

A friend got betrayed and hurt. A big shock actually! And the bad thing is no one at work cares about him and this hurts even more. All I can do is to offer huggies and kisses. I felt so guilty that I couldnt do more since I know he needs more. I know he needs peace and supports. I hate it when I cant do anything to help someone that I love and all I can do is just to see them being hurt. I can kiss, can hug, and can give them my shoulder. That's all and that's not enough. I wanna do more. But what can I do? Get stuck there really sucks.

Sometimes, life is so tough that you just wana let things, everything go and stop thinking! Though it's not my way to give up easily and I always tell myself to try more and more, it hurts when you have to try too much and too long. It likes when you are climbing up a mountain and you know beforehand that it will be very high and it will take lots of effort and you tell yourself to be up all the time for difficulties, you find yourself getting tired both physically and mentally at the halfway and the top of the mountain is still so far away, you dont know where and how long it will take more to get there and dont even know if you could get to the top or not. At that time, the thinking of giving up or letting go will come, naturally!

But you know what? You will find yourself telling yourself to be up again. Here we go, the self motivation! Are you ready? Errr.....Yes, I am as I always am!

My trainee

I am being replaced.
I told my boss that I'm leaving for a new job with a higher salary long ago. He soooooo wanted me to stay but said nothing about my salary,neither to improve it nor even just talk about it. Ok, whatever! The reason I wanna leave is not about the salary. It's about what I can learn and what challanges I can face.The time staying in the current company is long enough to make me feel bored with the job when I see nothing more for me to learn. Then I gotta move on, move on move on!!!
And today, I have a trainee, who is employed by my managers to replace me soon. She used to be a teacher in a countryside area and she has no knowledge or experiences in business. So the job is totally a big shock to her about everything. How to deal with things in a business manners not in a teaching manners. Let's imagine she deals with the customers in the teaching manners, oh my God! I dont dare to think of it anymore.
Though she's older than me with a husband and a kid (dont know son or daughter), she's still very shy, not nasty like me!! She knows nothing about the field that she's jumping in. I'm afraid that she would feel being overwhelmed by the job soon since she has been an English teacher for five years and it's not easy at all to switch from education to business, especially, work with technical guys who are soooo technical.... in many ways!!
When I was trying to explain to her about things, procedures in the company, how and what to do, how to deal with kinds of problems and what manners should be used for each, she was listening to me so attentively. And then,....., she... SIGHED!!!!!
Oh my God, sighing for the first wokring day? I feel so bad for her.
We've been spending the whole morning in the office to get her familiar to things in the procedure and we spent the afternoon out to see some customers and supplier. Everything went well till the third one. We were on the turn to a big street to the office of the third customer and I was running like hell accriss the yellow light with her following. I easily passed the yellow light without being touched by any policeman though he saw me passing but I made a big turn so he was too far away from me to catch. but when I looked back to find t

My day in SOS!

No, no. I'm fine! I have nothing worng with my health. I'm quite fine, I can eat a horse!

Okay, my day in SOS was about evaluating the way they run the reception area. I was offered a job in SOS as the Receptionist Supervisor and I wanted to do an observation for one morning then I could make the right decision of taking or not taking the post. They offered me 10 or 15 mins only, but I told them I would prefer to be there for the whole morning then I can understand more about the shit that I'm jumping in. Ok, just kidding, but the job is really messy and stressful. Oh, come on. It's about medical and it's SOS! Wake up! What do you expect? A morning with newspaper and coffee or tea and chatting around? No, forget it or get out!
For me, the job is quite interesting. Why? Because it's stressful and messy? No, not that reason! I'm not that crazy. I like it since it's totaly new to me. I'm now doing the job about guy thing. No, no, not about how to take off women's clothes and how to put something on/in something. It's about technical stuffs and I gotta hanlde the job with 5 big guys who are technical guys and they are sooooo technical. Professionally I mean. I dont know and dont care about them personally. Well, I like my current job actually. But it's time to move on. That' s all! Who wants to stay at one place for too long? Would be boring, wouldnt it? I cant stand the boredom, sorry Mr. Boss!!!
Ok, now come back with my day in SOS. Yes, it's messy and it's tressful and whatelse? Oh yeah, I like it! I worked for the whole morning and came back for a talk with the manager in the afternoon. They were looking forward to listening to me and to my feedbacks on the work there. Ok! You are doing a good job. The staffs are nice and friendly. However, I myself could see some sand there. This shoulld be done and that should be improved and the staff should be like this not like that.And blah blah blah.... They listened to them all. And..... "How long have you been in this industry? 4 or 5 years?" asked the manager. "No, it's only no more than 2 years actually" I should be honest, thinking was I before answered. And this was what I got" Wow, you seem like...." and a body language was used to express something looks like so ...... WOW.
Thanks God that I passed the test and they paid lots of attention to my opinions and the great thing is we share some of them.
Okay, that's good! I was asked to come over again the next morning to have another interview with HR manager. And another interesting story about the HR manager. I accidentally now working for the company which provided and installed the telephone system for SOS. And I remembered that when the installation was in process, I came to SOS many times to do my job and one of SOS's people that I usually contacted with was a guy whom I thought was working in IT Department since he got involved the IT and technical things a lot. And we worked well together to have the system installed and everything related done. And today, when I came to SOS to do the observation job, I saw him again, coming toward me saying Hi. I turned to him and said Hi in a very very casual and technical way:
" Hey, long time no see.How r u mate?"
He was just "I'm Ok! What are you doing here?"
"I'm going to work here with you, guy."
"I know, I know. Oh, and the Clinic Manager Assistant was trying to get me an interview with you as soon as possible."
Still thinking he was working in technical department or such and he was kidding me, I was so.......:
"Sure, let's see when is best time to get together somewhere for the interview. But you know what? I prefer some other places than here. Since it's too cold in here ( they are running the AC for the medicine's sake) I prefer somewhere hot, or at least, warmer than here." attached with a wink in a girly way!
"Ok,we'll see." Said he
Then I turned to the Assistant of the Clinic Manager, who has been interviewing and observing me since beginning: "Ok, so ....?" with a waiting voice.
She smiled back at me in a very soft way"This morning looked good. I'm thinking of arranging the time for you to have another interview with the HR Manager." then she turned to the technical guy: " Do you think you can manage to have an interview with her as soon as possible?"
"Sure, I think tomorrow morning would be great." said the technical guy.
OH MY GOD!!!!
He's not technical man and he is the HR Manager!!!
I'm dying!!! I'm dying!!
No, I;m still here, alive! and I have to see him tomorrow for the interview.

And then I came to SOS the next morning for the interview with the HR Manager as scheduled. Luckily that I passed the interview without any trouble. He's nice actually and anyway, the one who is the decision maker is not him alone, but many others and the most important one is my Manager who I have been in a good relationship with since begnning.

It sounded like I will get the answer from them in next 1 or 2 days about the contract and if everything is going on well, I will start my new job since mid June. I got a new job, almost:))

I'm excited for the new job and it's sooo new to me. Soooo many things for me to learn there. There we go..........Just keep swimming......just keep swimming.......

I am Moony

Hi everyone!
I have always wanted to have my own blog for so long, but for some reasons including both personal and IT reasons, I didnt have one till now. Prettty sure that I am the new comer to most of you guys who have had your own blogs long long ago. Kind excited to get my own too, then I can put my thoughts on air and everybody can know how crazy i am and I am Moony.
IF you guys think of blog as a diary, I used to have one which was a bog book and I wrote all of my crazy thoughts and stories down there for my self only. The diary used to be my best friend when I was a girl at high school and even at university. Every single funny and stupid thing was writen down there and later on, the only reader of that diary was me. Reading what I wrote down there few days ago or just few mins ago made me feel much better when I had some troubles or just girly things happening day by day. I also could look at me as an outsider to see how stupid I was when I did this or that, then I can be more mature later.
But now I discovered a new concept ; blog, where I can spread my thoughts and feelings and share them with all of my friends and even with some one I dont know.
I used to have no emotional support. No one, exactly no one! I was mentally on my own for my whole childhood and even when I grew up a girl, I didnt have a friend who is close enough to me that I can share my thoughts or feelings. I found everyone around me unlike me. I found myself to be a black sheep in the crowd and I got isolated mentally. My friends didnt have same thoughts with me about things, they didnt share their feelings with me as they didnt have same ones. So I could say the diary was the only emotional support to me when I was younger and it was the one who (or which) gave me smiles after tears, who (or which again) filled my soul and my mind with unanswered questions about things in life and about myself too. Day by day, I discovered things about life and about me (both good and bad ones, hopefully, good ones are more than bad ones :)) with the diary. I asked myself then I answered those questiones myself too. I got the answer either correct or incorrect. And since I didnt have anyone to share those things with, so both the correct and the incorrect answers stayed with me until I grew up more.
But now, forget them all, leave them all behind you since I found blog. You can say I'm countryside or whatever, but I thank me so much that I found "blog". There we go, I can always share my feelins with you guys whom I know and whom I dont know. I'm not gonna be alone anymore.